Arggghhh!

This nerve pain is driving me nuts! Now when I have spent a few hours relaxing I realize how much it really freaking hurt! It feels like lightning going from my neck up over my head, and also down and kind of behind my right ear. Insane!

I am glad I have already been diagnosed with neuralgia before, because if I had no experience with head nerve inflammation it really would have freaked me out, I would have thought brain tumor at least :-), ha, ha!!! Jokes aside, it is not like any regular headache or migraine, it is just burning and stinging like hell.

I get a milder form on and off on my front left nerve, and it always goes away in a few days. Since my nerve pain is caused by inflammation caused in its turn by lupus (SLE), well, I better just get used to this shit. But, of course, it does not make it hurt LESS!

I also got all these bumps along the nerve, very freaky... I think I will have to go to my doctor on Monday, this is turning out to be a little tougher than I thought, not that I am sure what he can do except calm me down (I am a bit freaked out) and maybe give me a steroid taper (when you take a high dose for a few days and then taper down the dose for usually 10 days).

So this really sucks. But I should be freaking USED to things like this by now. I seem to be destined to always have medical problems. But that is what you get for having a screwed up immune system...

Sorry, I don't mean to complain or anything (well, I do, I am tired of this mother****ing shit!!!).

Too bad you can't get an immune system transplant, Wouldn't that be something, huh? I would be first in line... :-)

Just remember my friends, think about how truly lucky we all are: life could always be a lot worse. A lot. I should not complain so much, I have a pretty good life, many are not as lucky at all, not at all...